Sophomore.

Hey guys, Shanise here. This is my first blog so I've decided I'm going to tell you a little bit about myself before i start posting real blogs about important/interesting things that happen. So as of now I'm a sophompre in high school and this has been one of the best years of my life. SO much has happened its crazy. Its such a change from last year! I was an incoming freshman in a new high school. New people, new school, new everything! I had a some really good friends last year but come on, we all know how freshman year is. Everyone is a fake nice to the other person just because its a new environment and everyone is just trying to fit in. I was pretty much a "goody good" last year. I hung out with mostly girls because the guys were pretty much all about doing guy stuff and hanging out with each other. But this year is a BIG change. I have the same girl friends which is good. We've gotten really close even though I've had my ups and downs with all of them. I've gotten really close to this group of guys. I hang / party with them every weekend. Yes party. Partying has become a huge party of my life this year. Since my mom works nights at the hospital and my dad has been in New York City working for half the year, I starting throwing huge parties on the weekends! It all started on Halloween. Which was around the time I became real good friends with pretty much the "party" guys of our grade. At the time I was dating this guy who was kind of friends with them but at the same time not so much. He had his own little group, but I didnt care. I was so happy with him nothing mattered. But that only lasted for so long and ended a little bit after my second party in November. I was sad for a while but decided why should I care if he doesn't want me? Not my problem so I decided to move on. Freshman year I had my first boyfriend who was apart of that "party" group of guys. Since I wasnt friends w/ those guys at the time, they pretty much made fun of me and made him dump me. But right after my boyfriend broke up with me in november of '09, my ex from last year became really interested in me. We started hanging out in December and got really close. During Christmas break, me and four of my friends all went to new york city together to celebrate my birthday. It was seriously so much fun. While i was in New York, my ex told me how he was crazy about me. That touched me. At that moment i realized thats who I wanted to be with. And the funny thing is, I've always known that since freshman year but after he dumped me, I tried to tell myself that he's not the one for me, but he was. After I came back from New York I started planning my next party. This would be my NEW YEARS EVE PARTY! Everyone was planning on going. All the party boys were planning all the drinks and other things they were getting for it. I was so excited. My friend Chelsea and I made sure that everyone was going to dress in black and white for the party because we though it would be a cute idea ;) A few days before the party I went to my ex's house. We had a really good time hanging out and planning things for the party. Later that night my other ex from october/november texted me saying how he was sorry for dumping me? I mean yeah it was nice of him but weird at the same time. I took nothing by it because figured he was high like usual so i just moved on with the night. Finally New Years Eve came. The night that would change everything. My girl friends came over early and we all got ready to look all cute together in our black and white dresses / outfits. Around 8:00 all the party guys showed up with all of our alcohol. Around 9:00 EVERYONE started coming. There was probably around 50 or more people at my house! Somehow something triggered me to take a lot of shots of smirnoff that night. So i did. And we all know what happens when you take about 10 shots? Yeah you pass out. I was passed out around 9:45. How embarrasing?:( I know. A lot of my friends helped me out through the night. Around 10:30 I remember getting up and going downstairs to talk to everyone. I was still really drunk but i was able to hang out with people. I ended up finding the boy i was talking to (my ex from last year) and we ended up hooking up. Well at least attempting to. I was really drunk so i dont really remember. lol. But then i ran into my friend Gordy. He's this guy i had the biggest crush on freshman year. I had the whole year for a chance with him but for some reason I never took it. So then we ended up hooking up too! Dont judge, i regret this whole night. Anyways, on with the night. My best friend nick brought 2 bottles of champagne and we popped them once the ball dropped. Me and one of my best friends rachel drank pretty much one whole bottle of one. Then that got me even more drunk. Then i made the biggest mistake of my life. I'm not going to say on here, but ended up hooking up with another guy who i will not mention. The next morning I pretty much woke up in tears. I couldn't believe what had happened that night. I realized timmy (thats the boys name, my ex) was never going to talk to me again and everyone would be calling me a slut. But, i was wrong. TImmy was so nice to me and caring. I knew he was the guy for me after that night. I mean if he could forgive me for doing all of what i did on new years?? Then he was a pretty great guy. After these nights, January flew by right into the middle of February. Me and Timmy had been talking for a few months now and I knew he was ready to ask me out. But the thing was, i liked him alot, but i still liked someone else :/ I'm not going to say on here who it was but if you know me, its probably obvious. I dont know why i still liked this guy because he had no interest in me but i did. Finally i realized the guy wanted nothing to to with me so it was over. Timmy asked me out on Valentines Day in such a cute way I just had to say yes :) He has been the best boyfriend ever! Our three month is tomorrow :) <3